Oh, I thought that I would post what I've been listening to for the last ten minutes... nevermind that the sound gets kind of crappy. Just enjoy. And if you don't like Hanson, why the hell did you click the play button?
Ten years ago Hanson came and change a lot of people. Go them. And even after ten years still know how to get girls screaming their lungs out for them! Inculing me. They are still making music and even coming out with another album May 22. Yay! *dances all over the place* God, I'm hyper. And my week had been really shitty. I needed this!
HAPPY HANSON DAY EVERYONE! GO LISTEN TO MIDDLE OF NOWHERE (if you are a Hanson fan) FOR OLD-TIMES!
My cat stole my ipod this morning and I'm really fucking pissed off about it. Once London gets ahold of something. it sometimes doesn't show up for months . . . damnit!
1. Can you cook? 2. What was your dream growing up? 3. What talent do you wish you had? 4. Favorite place? 5. Favorite vegetable? 6. What was the last book you read? 7. What zodiac sign are you? 8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? 9. Worst Habit? 10. Do we know each other outside of Livejournal? 11. What is your favorite sport? 12. Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude? 13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? 14. Worst thing to ever happen to you? 15. Tell me one weird fact about you. 16. Do you have any pets? 17. Do you know how to do the Macarena? 18. What time is it where you are now? 19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary? 20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be? 21. Would you be my partner in crime or my conscience? 22. What color eyes do you have? 23. Ever been arrested? 24. Bottle or Draft? 25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it? 26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew? 27. What's your favorite bar to hang at? 28. Do you believe in ghosts? 29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time? 30. Do you swear a lot? 31. Biggest pet peeve? 32. In one word, how would you describe yourself? 33. In one word, how would you describe me? 34. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
How much do I love the O.C.? I just finished the first season, It took me forever, but there you go. I *heart* it. I want to marry it if only it the marriageable. I wonder of I'm going to love the second second just as much. I LOVE the pilot and Seth. Let me tell you how much I love Seth.
Adam rocks!
"Oh cocaine. Awesome." I love the way he said it. I guess you have to watch to understand.
"Hey Ryan. What's up?" Oh the joy of Seth-isms. Specially from the pilot.
I'm so scared of the bad ripples That this choice will create That doesn't mean I don't want you Because, God, you know I do But I'm scared Because you can't it back Once those ripples are there They change things forever Nothing is ever the same
I don't want things to change I like things the way they are But I can't expect you to wait forever I know this choice will come again And keep hitting me in the face
Claim my beating heart Slow down my shaking fingers Breath in deep
But when do I know what is right? And when do I know when to just let go And go with the flow? When do I know
I don't want to make a wrong choice I don't want these ripples to follow me I only want the good ones I only hope that you just understand this
Okay, this made my day. I don't care that I have a paper due tomorrow and it's only half done. I don't care that I have to work all day, so that I really can't DO my paper.
Yes, folks, I care that I just found out that Veroncia Mars: Season Two is coming out on DVD on August 22! *dances* Yahhhhhhh!
But other than that, I am going to CA in like a week and half, so yay! I'll be fun, but so HOT! Damn.
I'm sitting in the library right now, with my iced chi and Lay's potato chips. Boy, I eat healthly, don't I?
I'm not sure what to write about right now. How much my short story for my writing class sucks? Because, yeah, it does. I only have three pages and it's suppose to be from five to ten . . . and it's due on Wedsenday. Screwed? You could say that. I've got nothing flowing though as far as creative juice goes. It's sucks.
Blank Paper is what I fear Losing the friendship we have gives me a falling feeling And as this water graces my face; a thing called tears I was there just an hour ago, telling you But you just went on as though my mouth hadn't opened up to speak
God, I'm so weak I just want to be with you And I know that's just wrong God, this weight is just killing me
My poems used to be about wanting someone else And now there are about wanting you How can that be? How did I make that change? How did I take that leap?
This has nothing to do with you This had everything to do with me And I fear that this won't last Why do I have to sollow this fear I seem to have?
I fear this blank paper in front of me I still fear these words I've written down I still fear you and my feelings And all I still want is you
I'm still a little confused Your reaction stuned me And it'll still confuse me
I;m sorry to lay this all out And I'm sorry if this still may become a shock to you I'm sorry may not be enough anymore I feel as though that I'm falling again As might be a very bad sign
But I'll be okay I have to get over it It's not going to be like the last time I'll tell you again tomorrow Like I did tonight
So many things have been going on. And so much of it most know. I got a kitten. I named him London.
But tonight was a little weird and I have no clue what is means and I have no clue what to say about it. I wish I wasn't so confused. But I am. Here we go:
I told Eli that I liked him. Kind of. Well, I told him that he was cute and nice and that I liked him. That he was different and not such an asshole kind many other guys. I don't think that he took me seriously. Which is sad. I'll try again on Tuesday when I work.
The fact that I want to sleep so much right now but can't
I hate work right now! (but will love my paycheck)
I hate that I thought of Sarah's birthday over and over again today (I guess it didn't help that I had to write the date about a million and one times today)
I hate that I want to watch two shows at the same time right now
I hate shopping (right now)
I hate the fact that last night I had a dream about the MECKKS taking Sarah out for her first legal drink.
I was looking for it, trust me, the every last thing I needed was this. I didn't him, and I didin't need to feel this way. Why do I feel this? Why do I feel this need. I can't let this happen again. I won't. It torn me up for the last seven years. I can't do that again, I just can't.
So what if he's two years younger? So what if he's no Zac Hanson? Not everyone can be a Hanson. But, God, he needs to shave. But he does have kind eyes. And he's taller than I am -
Wait. Why do I have to come with reasons? Why am I trying to convice myself? I'm so confused. I don't even know if he likes me. What if he doesn't? What will I do if it's a big mess all over again? I can't let that happen.
I need to get it out. I need to tell him. Because I can't let it happen again. I won't!
I want to forget you I want to not ever see you In my thoughts and dreams But they are something I can’t see coming
There’s a boy next door And I see him eyeing me And smiling at me
But then I think of you It brings back all those old feelings And I think of you again That boy just fades away
I don’t mean to be so mean I don’t mean to think of you But I can’t help it I tell myself that I’m so over you
But the truth is When I’m in his arms I think of you When I’m kissing him I can’t help but think of you
I keep telling myself it’s not true I keep telling myself that these feelings will change That I feel something for this boy Something close to what I felt for you What I may still feel for you
I care for him, don’t get me wrong But it’s a long road from you It’s a statue that he may never reach Even if I want him to
I want to forget you I want ease you So the guy I’m seeing now may have some kind of chance I don’t see that happening I don’t that changing I just want to forget you
Because of you I last Because of you I lost Because of you I thought of many things And because you my life became this making
I'm sorry I couldn't be that woman for you I'm sorry that you thought you had to lie I'm sorry you thought about things that really couldn't change I'm sorry for so many things that I shouldn't be sorry about
But I guess I can't help it But because of you I'm still here And pleading for you I don't want to be on my hands . . . and knees But if that's what it takes
I'm sorry for being me I'm sorry - I just couldn't take it I couldn't see a way out of this cycle of pain I could see the blood so clearly And I didn't want to see that
Because of you I see myslef Because of you I'm on this road again Because of you I won't be welcome anywhere anymore Because of you I have these scars that won't go Because of you I see myself for the first time
Things are okay for me right now. I'm broke, but I get paided in a few days. I still have to send my mother's b-day gift, but that's on the 15th, so I have time. I have to wrap my dad's gift, but I so don't have time to do, but I'll make time when I go to Angie's tonight.
HAPPY BRITHDAY LAURA!!!!! It's early, I know. But I'll call you tomorrow, and I'll be in CA in a few weeks. I really hope that everyone likes what I got them. But screw you if you don't, deal with it. :)
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